We made it to 5 weeks!
We took photos to mark your first month, but the most memorable part of this week was (hopefully) resolving your colic.
You’ve spent the last couple of weeks really upset. My body is sore from all the bouncing and walking to soothe you—I’ve been logging over 6,000 steps a day without even leaving the house! You couldn’t be set down for more than a minute or two before getting upset again. Every spit-up seemed to distress you deeply. You’d arch your back and stamp your feet in frustration.
For the past ten years, I’ve mostly eaten dairy-free, but recently I’d started adding some back in—mostly for the protein, and, let’s be honest, because it’s delicious. I discovered that I can tolerate some forms, like mozzarella (which is low in lactose), lactose-free cheese, and the occasional dark chocolate peanut butter cup. But anything beyond that? Not so much.
This summer, I enjoyed a handful of cheesy dishes, and that was the one thing we hadn’t ruled out as a possible trigger for your colic flare-up.
So last Sunday, I cut out dairy completely. By Tuesday, you started to feel a little better—with the help of gas drops. But by Wednesday, you were back to your calm, content, determined little self, even without the gas drops. I really hope that diet change did the trick. Since then, your tummy and gas have been noticeably better.
This week, we saw Auntie Susan, my best friend since childhood. It felt good to see here (and like she’s lived here all along, but she sadly isn’t near us regularly). We also saw Jenn—one of my friends whose son is just a week older than you! I hope you two become friends someday. You could say you’ve been friends since the womb.
Friday was wild—it took forever to get us out the door. I even bounced you in your car seat trying to calm you down both leaving and coming back home. It was a long, tiring day that wore us both out.
I swear you grew an inch during a nap.
This week was also our first one home alone together. The first couple of days were rough with your colic, but by Wednesday we found our rhythm. I wouldn’t say it’s easy, but I can say with confidence that we’re going to get through the hard moments together—and even enjoy them.
I’m getting much better at reading your cues. I can tell now when you’re tired vs. hungry vs. needing to potty. I’m even starting to see more of myself in you.
Mentally, I’m still working through a bit of dissociation from pregnancy and birth. It’s strange to look at videos of myself pregnant and feel like they aren’t real—like it must’ve been someone else. Reddit reassures me I’m not the only one. It’s an odd headspace right now, Clara. But one thing is undeniable: you’re here, you’re adorable, and you are so deeply loved.
Weeklies:
Changing it up a bit Clara.
- My favorite thing this week is watching you giggle in your sleep and roll through a thousand faces.
- Papá and I spend a lot of time feeling exhausted. Your dad commutes to work and when he gets home, you’re often in your witching hour. I love snuggling you when you first wake up, and sharing the morning with Papá, just being present.
- You are most curious when looking at your black & white cards and mirrors.
- The most memorable things about you this week are taking your one month photos and thinking how much I want to treasure this moment.
- Firsts this week include:
- Breastfeeding at a cafe
- 5 hour stretch of sleep (with a couple dreamfeeds)
- babywearing pretty much all day (you’re in my wrap right now!)
- putting the same dry/clean diaper back on 3x because we caught your cue to go to the potty
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